Sunday, March 30, 20081:16 PM
&because you was never there for me,
All i can do is sigh, make myself feel better, try not to think about it, do english compre, do something for art, laugh to make myself feel better, & hopefully, forget about everything that's bugging me.
edit 2: i was wondering when the broom was gonna break & it finally broke today. i srsly prefer the cane rather than the fucking broom.
edit 3: super boliao father, where the nail clipper went, also want to argue. Urgh. Today really suck for me. Urrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh. Jesus, get me out of here, please. :(
There's only one person in the world for me, standing beside me, going through everything with me, holding onto my hand for encouragement to persevere, to forget, to forgive. &,i know that.
How i wish He can change how things are, right now. I know there are people out there in worser plights, but still, i'm really tired of everything, i want to give up. But i know i can't. But seriously, i don't know how many years i've been going through all this shit. & they scold me that i'm the way i am, indirectly tell me i'm stupid & deny it, they tell my sisters not to grow up like me.
Who asked me to give away a balloon all by myself when i was a young girl? I remember crying my eyes out because i didn't want to give it away. & there you were, laughing at me, telling me that i was such an ugly girl that no one want to go near me, that others parents won't want me to go near their child. don't you deny it, i remember painful these things. & a whole lot more.
& i know, i'm never gonna be like you.